One Day

I surprised myself.
I felt real, raw emotion tonight.
For the first time in a long time.
I felt sad.
I missed him.
I actually got upset.
Because he's leaving for school.
I surprised myself.
I thought I'd be fine.
We weren't super serious.
But after the night we had the other night, we both fell hard.
It's like we both tripped.
I like him.
Quite a bit.
And he likes me the same.
And it's just sad that two people can't just be together.
I mean college, just wouldn't work.
But I felt sad.
Because I actually care about him.
Real feelings.
It was real life.
And that sucks.
Because I'm sick of missing people.
Because I think that eventually I could love him.
I know.
I finally said it.
I surprised myself too.