White Horse

I have my days where I'm hopelessly in love with that kid.
Like we are meant to be soulmates.
But too much has happened.
It's too late.
And I just need to forget.
I'm happier when I was forgetting.
But should I just forget?
What's healthy?
I'm so confused.
I have guys throwing themselves at me.
And I kinda want them but somethings holding me back and I dunno why.
Maybe I'm scared of commitment.
Or of moving on.
I dunno.
I just want to focus on friends.
School.
Dance.
I can't be bothered with boys.
I need to get Gordon out of my head.
Now.

It's too late for you and your white horse, to come around.